This time it's a lot more exciting. We know what to expect (within reason, every kid is different), and the whole thing feels so much less scary than last time. That's not to say there aren't anxieties, but this time we are going in with our eyes wide open instead of totally blind.
We know that there is a good chance that I won't produce enough milk, so for the first month or so, I'll be nursing and pumping like crazy, taking fenugreek, etc. And if I'm not making enough, I will have NO problem supplementing with formula or just giving up nursing all together. This time it won't take two months to figure out that our baby is starving. :)
We also know that it's likely I will have post-partum depression again. (I've literally been writing a post about it for a year. Someday I'll post it.) I will be leaving the hospital with anti-depressants in hand this time instead of waiting for five months to seek treatment.
We also set up some boundaries for visitors the first month. Mike and I are both introverts, and we recharge by being alone, be it with each other or on our own. So for the first month, we are only allowing our parents and siblings to visit, and we are kicking them out at 6:30 pm each night. Then we can have time alone as a family before Nash goes to bed, and time as a couple after that. Nash's nap time is also going to be a no visitor time, so that I can have alone time with the baby. Last time we had people in our house 24-7, we had random friends and relatives stopping by most days, and we had 20 people over for Easter dinner when Nash was two weeks old! (Our moms totally did all of the work, but still. There were 20 people in our house!) We LOVE and adore all of our family and friends, we just think these boundaries will be helpful in the transition to being a family of four.
I realize these boundaries mean that our house will be less clean, there will be less laundry done, and fewer meals prepared for us. But honestly all I want is time and space to enjoy our new baby. Because of the nursing issues and PPD, I really didn't enjoy those first few months with Nash. I was overwhelmed by everything, and when our nephew died a few months later, I completely lost it. In addition to overwhelming grief, I felt an incredible amount of guilt having a healthy baby that stressed me out so much. But seriously that's another post for another day.
I am excited to really revel in the newborn phase, and thankful that our family is so awesome in supporting us and what we need the first month or so. That time and space is going to be so great as we adjust, and we are excited to welcome our little girl home!
Anyway, we are just trucking along for the next 4 weeks! The nursery is pretty much done. We still need to raise the crib back up to infant height, but it's officially girly in there! I packed my hospital bag this week, too, because I'm a freak, but I just kept thinking about it and wanted it done in case anything weird happened and she came early. I don't actually think that will happen, but you never know! I also packed a bag for Nash in case baby comes before my mom comes to town, and he needs to spend the night at my brother's house or something.
I semi-regret having everything done though, because now the next four weeks are going to drag! Haha! We'll see what happens!